heartbreak.

delays...photo by Valerie Lynn Photography

Since this adoption I’ve used facebook almost like a discussion board between me and other adoptive families. Though I’ve only met a handful of them in person, the rest are “friends” in that they are or have gone through what we are and can give insight. This is one of the reasons we actually left our agency and went independent. I was able to follow through what some other people were doing, timing, etc. and realized that it was time to make that switch and we found our independent consultant through these discussions as well. Its a wonderful thing.

So, when news travels, it travels fast, and this past Thursday was no exception! You see, much to my heartbreak and extreme disappointment we have found out that the US Embassy has now required a 3-6 month investigation period on our adoption case after we file our I-600. This new regulation is the result of corrupt agencies and lawyers. While I agree wholeheartedly with everything being done ethically, it breaks my heart that families and children have to pay for this now, and it breaks my heart to know that we are missing so many days with our baby girl. This mama’s heart is exhausted. I’ve stared at my computer screen, held a picture on a piece of paper and I just want to be at the end already, holding my little girl, together a family of five!

I find it funny my word for the year is Hope. I started off last month with SO much hope and already, many things have changed. Big, huge things. Like where we move this summer, like when we bring our daughter home, its hard and I won’t deny that.

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.” Proverbs 13:12

Longing today to have our girl home!

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